i won't wanna go into updates of shit and stuff... coz...well it'll just be a waste of time. the menu for today. -5 lychees ( incredibly sweet i might add) -popiah filling with bean sprouts and apple juice -papaya and water melon everytime i eat a little i get full and i have been staring at people eat the whole day feeling horrible that i couldn't and didn't want to join in. i keep thinking about my body... about my stomach and thighs... sadly the knowledge that i will eat more plagues me. posted by Lynnette 2:30 AM . . .
its been so very long since i've been here. going thrrough all my post has made me realise how much i've changed in writing and how thankful i am for that. my older post are just really bad. funny how you an see a person grow just by reading what they write. posted by Lynnette 2:23 AM . . .
i'm sitting here in bed listening to Andy do his html and "last night" by Az Yet feeling so contented. This is the kinda feeling i wanna have for eternity. Manda says i'm becoming sappy.. i think i am but i feel better as a sappy person than a cynic. I pray that Manda will have days and nights like this...god kows she deserves it. My Baby. thats what this entry will be about. Amanda Lee. My pillar, my hope, my bestfriend and the only sister i'll ever have. She has the heart of a whale big enough to love all who are worthy. Her love is so immense that you have no choice but to be surrounded by it. This is the love that has been by me through the best and worst times of my life, pulling me up, holding me through. She writes the most wonderful things that i'll ever read. She is oh...so creative with words and pictures. She has a big cat ginger who she adores...most of the time. She can think too much for her own good. she eats in ways that could make me scream. She has the best music taste ever, after me that is. She gives the best hugs - when she puts her mind to it. I love you manda. don't be a pui and give me one of those hugs sometime soon. posted by Lynnette 9:14 PM . . .
"Be happy today. Rest in the comfort and knowledge that you are loved and treasured. The world is indeed your playground. I love you baby." What will i do without her? Thank you baby ... I LOVE YOU!!! posted by Lynnette 12:51 AM . . .
A: did i fix your broken heart? L: there wasn't one... A: maybe i should sing that song.. L: is your heart broken? A: well its fixed. he is so perfect. i mean it. i have never known someone who has made me feel the way he does. he says things that make me melt in a instant and leave me speechless. he makes my heart skip a beat everytime he sighs. i feel so lost now...its like a maze just fell and trapped me. but i really don't wanna come out of it. he makes me feel safe. it as though he took my heart and now i feel i belong nowhere but where he is...no one but to him. how can four hours on the phone do something like that to a person? "i am crying...for someone i've spoken to on the phone for five hours and have never met...how can that be?" oh my dear i don't know i really don't. "you've made me very happy...and sad." "i am holding you ...you don't have to think about it" "i feel so comfortable with you...its been so long since that happened" i wish i could record every word he said and keep it locked up in my heart. and i wish ...wish so so so so badly i could meet you. And how can I stand here with you And not be moved by you Would you tell me how could it be any better than this posted by Lynnette 12:35 AM . . .
funny how now when i come online i have nowhere to go, it use to be the internet was a boundless place which i could never get enough of but now...i go tto all my usual sites and get bored... the sad thing is i think its because i have gotten use to this new handphone life of mine. i talk to him all night then go to bed, wake up in the morning leave house to go out and back home to the phone. i've stopped wanting to learn more about people...i've stpped wanting knowledge. i've even lost interest in debates! i do not want this to happen to me...i want to be able to think quickly to be able to analyse things and to be less of a lazy person.... but that all thinking ... i need to do something about it. posted by Lynnette 8:43 AM . . .
